As I walk through a bed of sand - the drops of salty ocean water hit my face. I smile as the rich sunshine of California mesmerizes me with its beauty. I am happy to be home again...

When I landed last week at the airport, my world slightly shook apart. I wasn't sure about this project or the fact that I was back in California - where I have had a past and had a history...My feelings intermingled with happy and sad feelings. I had left California couple of years back for various reasons. 

I've moved pretty much every two years since I stepped into this world with tiny baby feet. But, it was the first time, I felt - i was coming back home. 

People say, home is where you have family or relatives or friends. I don't have family and relatives. Friends....I'm one of the few people in this world who doesn't know what does a "friend" mean. With time, I have realized that you are your own best friend and the rest should be left on destiny...People come and go. Humans are known to be selfish and we all walk out on each other. We are 'social' beings! (Whatever that means!)

Today, I close my eyes and remember the sweet times when I came out here on long drives, just to spend some quiet time with myself. I recall the interesting times, when I would simply drive couple of hours to catch the sunset here, walk through these beaches on the outskirts of San Fransisco to heal - barefeet. 

Today, after a long time - things feel right. It reminds me of the phrase from the Bible..."and this too shall pass."

There was a time when I felt alone, when my heart and world used to revolve around someone else. If he wasn't around, I just couldn't breath. But somehow I still survived. Ah - he took my breath but I still survived...(sighs). It was hard for me to breathe. There was no gravity to hold me on - I had felt like flying away. I had felt like disappearing from the face of this planet. I had felt like going invisible for so long - that I would forget that I'm even alive...

After a rollar coaster ride, I realized that I am a fighter. Today, my soul rests in peace (and it still lives). I am content. I feel as if my life has come to a circle. Today, I am not afraid of dying. Today, I am content. Today, I'm not afraid of leaving this world. Today, I'm not afraid of losing my life - with no air. I have had everything that I ever wanted and I'm a loved woman. I am lucky to have come this far and I value my family's love and support.

 I'm completely at peace and one with myself.  I don't feel like I'm missing anything as a single woman. Odd - I know but I feel that I am where I wanted to be. It isn't so hard to breath without air anymore.

Today,  as a single woman who isn't yet in her mid twenties...I sponser 8 girls in India for their education, hospital bills, books and support them. I support 2 artists in California ( refugee's kids). that makes it ....10 kids who are my priority in life (after my family..).  Money is just a source that brings power and helps to the needy (for me). I hope to use money as a tool to make it this world a better place. I'm just a small being dancing to the music of life. I've found the tune to my life and it isn't some sad violin song...

Play the drums for warriors...cuz the 9 girls and 1 guy under my wing deserve some cheer from groups for coming this far.  Play the drums louder - so they can hear. Play them faster - so we can all...dance to this music of life...
Cheers!!!